It's been awhile

 I haven't felt like writing about cancer. I haven't felt like thinking about it.

I've had several of you that read this ask about updates, so I figure it's time.

I've had two doctor's appointments since I last wrote. The most recent being yesterday.

Still good news. My tumor markers are still going down.  I was surprised a bit as nothing to date has worked this well for this long.  I have scans coming up on Dec. 4, then we'll be able to see how I'm really doing.

So I've been on this chemo pill, Xeloda, since July when I had my extreme headaches.  I had to work up to a full dose because it made me super nauseous.  So I've been on a full dose for quite awhile and the side effects are hitting me pretty hard.

Not to complain, but I want to list everything, just for my memory and documentation

Yucky taste in my mouth

Hardly any flavor of foods.  Potatoes and white bread seem to be the best.

Nausea which is mostly dinner time, but off and on during the day. I have to time pills and food just right.

Hand and foot disease.  I haven't got to the point where the sores hurt and peel, but my hands are more than chapped. They're dry and red and hot.  I also have rashes on them and it goes up my forearms. My feet aren't as bad, they're extremely dry and the balls of my feet, at the top, get sensitive when I walk.  They suggest no barefeet.

Digestion issues: Sometimes extreme, sometimes mild, never just normal

Extreme fatigue...I get soo soo tired and weak.  I usually do too much during the day and by 4:00 I'm done.

Overall yuck- I just don't feel good most days.

Esplin told me that we should slowly back down...maybe instead of 3 in the morning and 3 in the evening, I should do that for the first several days and then switch to 2 and 3 and then maybe 2 and 2. So I'll try that, but I'm scared to not take the full dose.  He assures me that this is normal and it's fine. The goal is to get the longevity on this Chemo. If I have these severe side effects, I won't be able to have a good quality of life for long.

I'm happy that my tumor markers are still coming down.  I'm trying not to get too high of expectations, but remain positive at the same time. Balance