I was going absolutely stir crazy, so we packed up the kids,, got the last VRBO available and went to Lava Hot Springs for 3 nights. Lava has a lot of good memories for me. Family reunions, swimming, floating the river and the hot pots of course. We did all of it and the girls loved it!
Last Thursday night, I was nauseated....like I usually am on this Xeloda, and I threw up and it happened again! The head pain! Although, it was less severe, kind of like the first time it happened to me.So I was in bed and by the next morning it was much better with just a little residual left over.
Of course, it was Pioneer Day and Esplin wasn't in the office. I wasn't sure if it happening again, after it hasn't happened means that it's not the Piqray, but instead the Xeloda. However, I've heaved since then and haven't had the head trauma so I just don't know.
Esplin wanted me to very gradually re-start my Xeloda. My full dose is suppoesed to be 3 in the morning and 3 at night. That last time I had the head thing I had just had my first day of 2 and 2. So I've dropped down to 1 in the morning and 2 at night. I'm trying to find the right balance between how and what to eat how many minutes before I take my chemo and also how to time my anti-nausea pill. I am doing okay with it, but just when I think I have it figured out I will get so nauseous and just can't hold it in.
I will go get my labs next week and then see Esplin the following Tuesday. That way we'll have my tumor markers and know what we should do from here on out. Half a dose of chemo doesn't seem good enough to me, but I just can't seem to tolerate more.
The Relief Society President asked if she could have the sisters in my ward fast for me this Sunday. I realized just how far I've come with accepting help. I welcomed that offer immediately.
I just can't do this alone. I need those prayers. I need those fasts. I need those people. And I'm so very thankful for them. I don't think you really can understand until you've had people fasting and praying for you, how much it really does help and lift me. There have been some times that I have been so down and scared and discouraged and I knew that the only thing keeping me going was the faith and prayers of others.
What a fabulous blessing prayer and people have always been in my life. Isn't that a wonderful part of the plan?
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