I've kind of been MIA from this blog......mostly because I'm busy with my kids and that's where I want to spend my time, but also because nothing is really new.
I had my Dr. appt. last Wednesday. It went pretty well. My tumor markers are still going up which worries me, but also he says that can also go up when they are being killed because they're released into your blood stream.
He has ordered a PET scan for me and my insurance has approved it. I'm just waiting for the Huntsman Cancer institute to call for my appointment. I'm nervous, but mostly glad that I get to know what's going on.
Dr. Esplin says that we can always hope for shrinkage, but at this early in the game, we should hope for at least "stable" That means no growth and probably no shrinkage I'm really hoping at least for that, cause I'm tolerating my drugs so well that I hate to change them and have new ones not agree with me as well.
The past couple of New testament classes at church have been difficult for me as we've talked about the atonement and our trials.
All along, I have prayed for miracles and added that I would like to be blessed to be content with what he has planned for me....to want what He wants for me. Right now, I'm not okay with the thought of dying, but if it's His will, then I'd like to get to a point of truly being able to say Nevertheless, not my will, but thine.
Even the Savior asked 3 times if it were possible to not have to drink of the cup, but he did it willingly anyway. And what he was about to endure was a billion billion times worse than anything I will have to endure. Still, I'm struggling truly being okay with it.....especially since I don't know yet what His plans for me really are.
Hello sister Kristi. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I am glad to stop by your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am also blessed and feel privileged and honoured to get connected with you as as wsell as know you as the one who loves to Lord Jesus Christ and whose trust is in the Lord. I am sorry to know about your Metastatic Cancer and the way you are fighting it with the Lord's strength. Life seems to be challenging for yuu with yet being okay with it especially since you do not know yet what His plans for you really are. May the Lord bring complete healing and make you free from cancer. He has done it with my nephew who is a physican and who had testical cancer when he was just 32 years of age. Now he is cancer free. Nothing is impossible for the Lord. After he experienced healing in his life he wrote a book on cancer with a christian perspective and with his experiences. Wish some time in future he would undertake translation of this book which will inspire hundres of people who are going through this sickness. You are serving him as well a you hace your young childer to raise in the likeness of Jesus. I love getting connected with the people of God around the globe to be encouraged, strengthened an praying for one another. I have been in the P astoral ministry for last 40 yrs in this great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor with the love of christ to bring healing to the brokenhearted. We also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have young people from your family circle to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. I am sure they will have a life changing experience. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you, your family and friends. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede.
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